Getting through it all

Being betrayed by a close friend is one of the hardest things to go away from your thoughts.  Depending on the way you process things that you go through, you can either rise up from it quickly or become damaged and untrusting of everyone to an extent.   For me, I had to write about it, go out to the movies, go out with friends more often and sometimes just cry about it.   Many times questions would arise trying to wrap your mind around it all, to fully understand why someone so close to you would be deceitful and be normal about it.  Then again, you seem to be a nag when you want clarification from them, so most times many questions go unanswered.

However, it is of great importance to have all questions cleared if you live with the betrayer, as sometimes they too may have been confused and is grieving the same way as you are.  The issue of trusting them again can only come about after years of learning to trust that same person again or never.  In the case of trusting again, for me personally, it has been going on five years after being betrayed be a loved one to see some glimmer of trusting again.  I sometimes have to force good thoughts, to abolish the bad thoughts out of my mind!  Truly, we all heal at a different rate.

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Brief Bio. Name: Vearna Gloster Titles: Beekeeper, Pre- School Teacher, Independent Researcher, Innovator, Poet and Forthcoming author. Business: Arg's Enterprise for Pollen and Pure Honey Founder of: Bee Active Initiative Member of: Trinidad and Tobago Beekeepers Associaton Phone: 8682746677l Email: vearnarg3@gmail.com Website: argsenterprise.webs.com Vearna Gloster is an active Beekeeper for the past (10) ten years. Her broad and optimistic approach in beekeeping will open and enhance new levels of understanding in our local beekeeping industry. She is an activist in the promotion of saving our Honeybees by spreading the knowledge of the vital role of these amazing insects in our survival. Vearna is the founder of ‘Bee Active Initiative’ which help young children store information and help in the conservation regarding the role of Honeybees in the “green” survival of humanity. Vearna was featured in the Sunday Express Mix Music Section at #1 on the top 12 Indigenous Chart for her piece on ‘Honey’, capturing the state of our local honey industry in November 2014. She has been an awardee in the Special Prize Category of the NIHERST Prime Minister’s Awards for Scientific Ingenuity in 2015 with her Solar Bee Hive Vent and was featured in the Plenty Sport E-zine Issue #19 in January 2016 as ‘ The Honey Bee Runs!’ As an independent Researcher in the beekeeping field, she is currently working on Honeybee Botany in Trinidad and Tobago which also brings with it the understanding to the link of the medicinal/nutritional value of the plants/ trees/ shrubs and our honey. She is a forthcoming author of the ‘Sun Goddess’, her first poetry collection.