Recycled memories

Once he was all she had in her thoughts,

Then through him, She, was added,

Another time not too long after,

Another She, was added…

She questioned herself,

What am I doing?

What have I done?

Only to realize, he was not grown.

An impressionist, deceptive, boy,

Stunted by thoughts so small

As the porn he stayed up to watch,

While she struggled with their tiny tot’s uneasy nights.

How did she not see,

This boy in a man’s body?

Down talk women acquaintance so easily

Then turn around in silence to them to be seen as the true friend

Making her look like the jealous, inhumane wife

Who calls their acquaintances names,

That his emotional intimacy, can appear sane!

How can he? Can he be fixed?  Maybe not…

As she had come to see.

The rain of her tears, has ceased to fall

As the cycle of remembered scenes recalled

The blatant and childish lies, rolled from his once sweet worded tongue

No longer bear any loving chords.

Now she faces the reality

Of a man-child’s chemistry!

With choice in her hands

She can now set herself free.

©2017~VearnaGloster

 

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Brief Bio. Name: Vearna Gloster Titles: Beekeeper, Pre- School Teacher, Independent Researcher, Innovator, Poet and Forthcoming author. Business: Arg's Enterprise for Pollen and Pure Honey Founder of: Bee Active Initiative Member of: Trinidad and Tobago Beekeepers Associaton Phone: 8682746677l Email: vearnarg3@gmail.com Website: argsenterprise.webs.com Vearna Gloster is an active Beekeeper for the past (10) ten years. Her broad and optimistic approach in beekeeping will open and enhance new levels of understanding in our local beekeeping industry. She is an activist in the promotion of saving our Honeybees by spreading the knowledge of the vital role of these amazing insects in our survival. Vearna is the founder of ‘Bee Active Initiative’ which help young children store information and help in the conservation regarding the role of Honeybees in the “green” survival of humanity. Vearna was featured in the Sunday Express Mix Music Section at #1 on the top 12 Indigenous Chart for her piece on ‘Honey’, capturing the state of our local honey industry in November 2014. She has been an awardee in the Special Prize Category of the NIHERST Prime Minister’s Awards for Scientific Ingenuity in 2015 with her Solar Bee Hive Vent and was featured in the Plenty Sport E-zine Issue #19 in January 2016 as ‘ The Honey Bee Runs!’ As an independent Researcher in the beekeeping field, she is currently working on Honeybee Botany in Trinidad and Tobago which also brings with it the understanding to the link of the medicinal/nutritional value of the plants/ trees/ shrubs and our honey. She is a forthcoming author of the ‘Sun Goddess’, her first poetry collection.